Roads Can Change
On July 18, 2011, I had a CT scan and when the test was finished I was told to go straight to my doctor’s office. From that afternoon on I have been on quite a roller coaster. I had a 5 cm. gangliocytoma in my cerebellum that was benign – thanks to God! With 2 surgeries down and an ER visit, and third hospital stay, I have a little bit of perspective to share. I always thought I knew what faith was. I attend church and have said it over and over through out my life, I have sung about it in many hymns. But, I had no idea what faith was. I had no idea how much strength and effort it takes (for me) on a moment by moment basis to live in FAITH and NOT FEAR. Faith is like a muscle and if you don’t work it it will become weak.
It’s harder than I thought but I am learning how to work faith in my life and I am learning how living in faith works for me. I have many mantras I say in my mind and aloud when the fear starts to creep in “Every day and in every way I am getting better” and “I live in faith and not fear” and “Thank you God for my healing.” We all have roads we walk on, my road has just made a sharp turn but with the help and prayers of my family and friends, but most specifically the help and support of my amazing mother, I am healing, getting stronger, moving, positive and looking forward!